I feel vindicated
The first real company I worked at got sold the other day. All I can say is that I just felt a sigh of relief wash over me. I felt happy - not so much because I made money - but because I felt closure about the entire situation. Like it was finally done, nothing was hanging over my head, and I could close a bad chapter of my life.
It wasn't all bad there. I learned a whole hell of a lot. My boss there was pretty amazing. He taught me a ton of information. A ton. I learned a lot about how businesses work, how to do some things well, how to do some things wrong. I really took a lot away from that experience and I apply it everyday at my current place.
Closure is a great thing in life.
Wish I could get closure on some other situations in life. I'm not sure that's ever going to happen. I have to admit that I've been working through a lot of issues lately. I much better understand why I am motivated and what drives me to do the things I do. I'm getting to the acceptance point. I was in denial for a while, had a very long angry stage, and I think I've hit the upward turn. I just need to continue working through those feelings and hopefully eventually accept it for how it is. True acceptance, not what I do now of just saying "well, it is what it is, there's no changing it now." But am still really angry and bitter about it inside. I think I'm getting over that angry bitter stage. Hopefully.
Jess was really right. I can't think about all the stuff I have that other people don't. I can't feel guilty for it. I earned what I have and should not be ashamed of it. Neither do I think I should flaunt it. I can't look back at people I once was friends with and be sad that they aren't where I am. I can't hold myself back. I need to keep reaching forward. If I don't then I am neither helping them nor helping me.
It wasn't all bad there. I learned a whole hell of a lot. My boss there was pretty amazing. He taught me a ton of information. A ton. I learned a lot about how businesses work, how to do some things well, how to do some things wrong. I really took a lot away from that experience and I apply it everyday at my current place.
Closure is a great thing in life.
Wish I could get closure on some other situations in life. I'm not sure that's ever going to happen. I have to admit that I've been working through a lot of issues lately. I much better understand why I am motivated and what drives me to do the things I do. I'm getting to the acceptance point. I was in denial for a while, had a very long angry stage, and I think I've hit the upward turn. I just need to continue working through those feelings and hopefully eventually accept it for how it is. True acceptance, not what I do now of just saying "well, it is what it is, there's no changing it now." But am still really angry and bitter about it inside. I think I'm getting over that angry bitter stage. Hopefully.
Jess was really right. I can't think about all the stuff I have that other people don't. I can't feel guilty for it. I earned what I have and should not be ashamed of it. Neither do I think I should flaunt it. I can't look back at people I once was friends with and be sad that they aren't where I am. I can't hold myself back. I need to keep reaching forward. If I don't then I am neither helping them nor helping me.
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