Conflicted

How can something that used to make you feel so great make you feel so crappy?

I'm super frustrated by life right now. I'm frustrated that I can't turn to the people that I normally turn to. I'm frustrated because I think other people are getting further in life faster than me. I'm frustrated because I even care about what other people are doing. I'm frustrated that other people compare themselves to where I am. I'm frustrated by success and I'm frustrated by failure or perceived failure.

Why can't I be happy with what I have? Why can't people stop comparing themselves to other people?

I'm the only one in this situation that has the potential to change. I need to do that. I need to figure out how it's going to work.

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