I've decided
I am going to get over this funk and get on with life. Shit happens, there's nothing I can do about it but roll with the punches. Getting depressed and upset about stuff that I can't change isn't going to help anyone - much less myself. I'm done with this. I'm going to get over it. By get over it - I'm not just going to ignore it - but work through it and get it done. Ignoring things never helped me before and it's not going to help me now. I can only work though it and just keep moving forward.
I think that should be my motto in life. Keep moving forward. No matter what shit comes down, what shit hits the fan, what shit happens around me, and what shit I bring on myself. Keep moving forward. Making progress always makes me feel better. Making no progress just keeps the cycle of depression going.
Therefore this is not going to be a wallow weekend culminating with a pity party. It's going to be a productive weekend, I'm going to get shit together and get my life moving forward again. I'm going to do all the stuff I've been avoiding for a while, mean while think about my priorities in life and figure out if I think I'm going in the right direction based on what is important to me. I won't say values - because I think what your values are come out of what is important to you.
Maybe I should make a list of what is really important to me, and then figure out what actions I need to make to ensure that my actions, money, and focus is put on those things instead of what I think is not so important. Like make some new mid-term goals.
I think that I led myself down this road after I got my 3-month raise. I was so excited; but I didn't really make any new short term or long term goals to work towards. I just was like "oh - I must be doing the right thing, I should continue that." The reality of the situation is, I was doing the right thing because I was making goals for myself and then achiving them. I'm not doing that now, therefore I'm not doing the same thing I was before. I need to get my head back in the game and keep moving forward; because I've just been standing still the last few weeks.
I've realized that the reason I think my life is falling apart is because of me and not because of other people and their actions/lack of action. I'm allowing me to affect me. I need to get my head together. I think a good time to do that is now.
I think that should be my motto in life. Keep moving forward. No matter what shit comes down, what shit hits the fan, what shit happens around me, and what shit I bring on myself. Keep moving forward. Making progress always makes me feel better. Making no progress just keeps the cycle of depression going.
Therefore this is not going to be a wallow weekend culminating with a pity party. It's going to be a productive weekend, I'm going to get shit together and get my life moving forward again. I'm going to do all the stuff I've been avoiding for a while, mean while think about my priorities in life and figure out if I think I'm going in the right direction based on what is important to me. I won't say values - because I think what your values are come out of what is important to you.
Maybe I should make a list of what is really important to me, and then figure out what actions I need to make to ensure that my actions, money, and focus is put on those things instead of what I think is not so important. Like make some new mid-term goals.
I think that I led myself down this road after I got my 3-month raise. I was so excited; but I didn't really make any new short term or long term goals to work towards. I just was like "oh - I must be doing the right thing, I should continue that." The reality of the situation is, I was doing the right thing because I was making goals for myself and then achiving them. I'm not doing that now, therefore I'm not doing the same thing I was before. I need to get my head back in the game and keep moving forward; because I've just been standing still the last few weeks.
I've realized that the reason I think my life is falling apart is because of me and not because of other people and their actions/lack of action. I'm allowing me to affect me. I need to get my head together. I think a good time to do that is now.
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