Why is vacation stressful?
Well, to tell the truth, it's only a very small part vacation that's stressing me out. It's really the fact that I have a crap ton of stuff to do before vacation starts. I was really excited about it last week, now I'm getting to the 'oh holy hell, how is all this stuff going to get done?' I worked half of the day today - from about 1-6pm. I got far enough where I can finish stuff tomorrow and have it look half way decent. It's really frustrating to not have a graphic designer who can actually make the stuff look half way decent. She did stuff, I just have no idea where she put it. Maybe I can tool around on her computer if I go into the office tomorrow and try to find it. It would be like amazingly useful to find it.
I have to admit that there are certain things that I like to have planned out, things like presentations and where my money is going. Most stuff, I'm not much of a planner. I used to be, but then I just came to a point in my life where I realized I was always being disappointed because my plans didn't work out. They weren't working out because everyone else didn't have the same plans as I did. So I just decided that giving up on having plans and just rolling with it, was a much better way to live and that I was a lot happier. So I just roll with it most of the time - and I'm so much happier with life, though I'm sure it drives some people nuts (sorry mom!)
It all comes down to my one central theorm in life. Don't fight a battle you don't think you can win. Otherwise it's just a waste of time, effort, energy, etc that could be put to better use in a battle that I could win. To go along with that, if you don't think you can win, then it probably wasn't that important to you in the first place. I don't want to put energy and effort towards something that I don't care about. That would be against everything I am.
I organize my budget to have money for the things that I think is important. I don't live in a fancy house, I don't have really nice stuff, I don't have a super fast car, and I don't go shopping all of the time. What I do have is the freedom to be able to say yes whenever my friends ask if I want to go do something, I have the freedom to go on vacation and spend however I want, I have the security of knowing that I will have money when I retire. I have peace of mind, and I have freedom to do what I want. I guess I see money as a tool to use strategically to get what I really want out of life. I realized that spending money on stupid stuff, and instant gratification type stuff didn't really make me happy. What made me happy was spending time with friends and family; having great experiences with them. When I look back at life, the stuff I remember with the fondest memories is not what skirt or sunglasses I bought, but rather doing something interesting/fun with the people I care about. I don't remember the details of the car I was in, or how clean the floors were.
That's why so many things are a struggle. I'm always struggling with deciding what is important to me. It's never an easy thing.
I'm so exhausted and I think I'm just overthinking life again.
I have to admit that there are certain things that I like to have planned out, things like presentations and where my money is going. Most stuff, I'm not much of a planner. I used to be, but then I just came to a point in my life where I realized I was always being disappointed because my plans didn't work out. They weren't working out because everyone else didn't have the same plans as I did. So I just decided that giving up on having plans and just rolling with it, was a much better way to live and that I was a lot happier. So I just roll with it most of the time - and I'm so much happier with life, though I'm sure it drives some people nuts (sorry mom!)
It all comes down to my one central theorm in life. Don't fight a battle you don't think you can win. Otherwise it's just a waste of time, effort, energy, etc that could be put to better use in a battle that I could win. To go along with that, if you don't think you can win, then it probably wasn't that important to you in the first place. I don't want to put energy and effort towards something that I don't care about. That would be against everything I am.
I organize my budget to have money for the things that I think is important. I don't live in a fancy house, I don't have really nice stuff, I don't have a super fast car, and I don't go shopping all of the time. What I do have is the freedom to be able to say yes whenever my friends ask if I want to go do something, I have the freedom to go on vacation and spend however I want, I have the security of knowing that I will have money when I retire. I have peace of mind, and I have freedom to do what I want. I guess I see money as a tool to use strategically to get what I really want out of life. I realized that spending money on stupid stuff, and instant gratification type stuff didn't really make me happy. What made me happy was spending time with friends and family; having great experiences with them. When I look back at life, the stuff I remember with the fondest memories is not what skirt or sunglasses I bought, but rather doing something interesting/fun with the people I care about. I don't remember the details of the car I was in, or how clean the floors were.
That's why so many things are a struggle. I'm always struggling with deciding what is important to me. It's never an easy thing.
I'm so exhausted and I think I'm just overthinking life again.
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