Afraid of Failure

I know in my mind - that failure can be a good thing. Other people tell us that failure can lead to good thing eventually (think JK Rowlings harvard grad speech.) However, I am still afraid of not measuring up to my own expectations. Generally my expectations of myself are much higher than others expectations of me. This does not lead to goodness as I often disappoint myself.

At work today, I got roped into running a 3.5 mile road race... on Thursday. This should be interesting. No one else has really trained though - so I think we will all be equally embarrassing.

I don't know what I want out of life. Maybe I should stop worrying and just start living. Everything seems to go better with life when I just don't think about stuff and just do. I guess it's the whole 'go with the gut' thing, it seems to work for me.

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