This place is a prison

I'm really starting to get serious about this whole business school thing. I've started researching schools... I'd love to move back to the Boston area - and oddly enough BU and BC Business schools are on my list. I'm hoping that if I apply this fall - then timing at work will work out really really well. But timing could work out horribly too. I'm not planning on timing to get me through. At least I feel like I know how the process works and it's just a matter of filling out the paperwork. I know what I want out of a school and I know what will and won't work for me as a student. I've started studying for the GMAT - and I've got a ways to go before I feel more confident in this type of test. It's been like 6-7 years since I took a standardized test like this (university was all problem solving exams - I think I had like two classes that had multiple choice questions in four years.) So I've got to practice a bit to get back into the groove (and sometimes crazy logic) behind these stupid questions. But if I don't do well on this test - there's no way to get into a business school that I actually want to go to. Slowly but surely I'll get it done. I'd like to take the GMAT in October - and then apply for the schools I really want to go to by November to hit the first deadline. Then if the first round doesn't stick - I can move on to less desirable schools for the second round etc. Hopefully this way I'm not spending $1K in freaking application fees.

Then if I get in I'll have to figure out how to pay for it... *sigh* one step at a time.

This lady that I used to work with always talks about how great it would be to win the lottery and then just be able to go shopping all day. I totally can't understand that sentiment. I don't really have fun if I have to go shopping all day for one day - much less for more than one day in a row. After about an hour shopping isn't fun for me anymore. Nor can I contemplate feeling like I had no purpose in life (well less purpose than I have now - and I don't really feel like I have a whole hell of a lot of purpose right now.) People who really want someone to solve all of their problems and just have someone wave a magic wand really annoy the piss out of me. The problem I think is the flaw in the logic; thinking that money will solve problems and won't create more problems. Yes - it can solve some problems - but it creates a lot too. I guess I just want to have pride in myself and what I am able to earn - not be given.

Though it's becoming more and more clear to me - that using money to buy stuff is not a good use for it. I don't get a lot of pleasures out of it - I don't gain any joy. It's the time off that I get to spend with friends and family, travel that I get to do, and experiences. THat's the stuff that I remember and that in a year or so I lust after. I don't lust after a new car (as noted by Mufasa). I have enough stuff to do everything I need to do I just want to have fun now in any way shape or form that I can get it.