Baby Finances

I hit me today that it's really not me. I'm not the one that made work suck so much. I'm not the one with the problem. I'm not the reason that everyone is unhappy. I'm not doomed to unending unhappiness. Not all places are as bad as my current job. When I was at Bioinfo I was relatively happy (until Denise turned into a raving bitch b/c she was taking out her unhappiness on me.) I like working with Scott and the kiddies over the summer. I even liked working for that lady that I popped her tire - more than this. It is really raving idiocy to not realize this before now. I really thought that I was the reason I was so unhappy. That I was just doomed to be forever unhappy with having to work in general. But that's not really the issue. It's really just the place I work. They're crazy. Just plain crazy. I could go on for hours about why they are crazy, but to take the step back and just know it's not me... make me feel better. It also makes ...

I decided that it would be a good day to get my haircut. It actually turned out a little shorter than I expected, but that's okay. The thing that hit me was that the stylist said "it's always the brides who just got married, the girls that just broke up with her boyfriend that chop their hair off." Which I hadn't thought about until she said it, but it's the same type of life changing event that's happening to me. Looking for a new job in a new city is definitely life changing like that. I guess subcontiously I wanted the physical change to reflect the mental change. OMG Is the snow ever going to stop? It's like every freaking day. They are talking even more snow yet tonight. The plows weren't able to keep up on the freeways. It was really horrible driving earlier. I can't imaging with how fast it has been falling it's been any easier to clear it in the last two or three hours. Maybe it will snow enough were they will cancel work...

Got through the first step.

Ever have that feeling that everything is "off" on a certain day. That time is either going way to fast or way to slow, and all of a sudden the day is done and you have no idea what happened. That you are just floating around with no sense of the world. The world is just going by without any measure or notice. That totally happened to me today. But there's a very good reason for this. My watch stopped working. I feel lost without it. I only look at it a few times in a day, but those few times provide the needed security and sense of self that I need everyday. Note to self: buy a new watch. I'm thinking this one maybe: http://www.overstock.com/cgi-bin/d2.cgi?page=proframe&prod_id=2091745&AK=1 I really have a lot that I want to accomplish tonight. I hope that I can get everything done. Tomorrow I have a phone interview. Which is exciting in more ways than just the obvious. The fact that anyone thinks that I have some potential as an employee and tha...

Today was a very uneventful Birthday. Work was extremely boring (for which I am extremely thankful.) I had some of my left over birthday cake for breakfast. I'm trying to make a roast turkey breast. We'll see how it turns out. I hope it's tasty and looks pretty. The stir fried veggies I made were tasty (yes it's the same recipe over and over with slight variations here and there. The turkey breast is made on a bed of carrots, onion, and garlic. And is rubbed with thyme, parsley, salt and pepper under the skin. Then just roasted for 30-45mins. Pretty simple. Hopefully it will be tasty. I have to say I do feel kind of old. The is supposed to be the lowest morale day of the year. I guess it just makes sense....

So, if any of you have wondered where I've been lately -- I blame it all on the new computer. I got a new laptop (read: amazing) before Christmas, and thus have lost all of my old blog contacts, phone numbers, anything of importance (read: Taxes from last year.) Thus the lack of contact with the outside world for like a month. Happy Birthday Lauren (a little late I know... I'm really behind this year.) Is there a date for the shower yet? When are these recruiters going to call me? I'm totally in the process of finding a new job (IE not in Rochester NY.) I'm supposed to have at least one phone interview this week. I've found that talking to recruiters is MUCH more effective than applying to random jobs on Monster or HotJobs or something. Granted, I did the 3 or 4 months of applying to jobs and found the current one. I'm hoping I will be out of Rochester before May. But, you never know where it will go. It might take longer, or I might find a job tomorrow....

My parents came up to Rochester this weekend for my Birthday. (I really shouldn't say "up"... because in actuality it's really "over" as in east on I-90.) We went out to dinner at a Italian restaurant close to my house. Which was really tasty. I've had some of their brick oven pizzas before as take out -- but I've never had an actual meal. The place is surprisingly small, quaint, and the staff is slightly rude. I do have high expectations for wait staff in a semi-formal restaurant. I'm not expecting a freaking angel, I'm expecting civility and normality. I forgot that most of the population you can't really describe as "normal." (What is "normal" anyways... I should write about my definition in a later post.) The meal was very good. Our waitress very friendly and polite. My only beef with the place was actually the hostess. We arrived about 6:15pm or so, and asked for a table. She's like "Oh you...

I don't think I've ever heard more bitching in my life today. I know your job sucks. So does mine, get over it. So what if part of your job is to transfer calls and support Sales? I'm pretty sure that it's in your job description. Whereas doing marketing stuff, website updates, and associate training sessions are TOTALLY in mine.... Maybe it's just PMS week in the office. Maybe it's because there's not enough sunlight. Maybe it's b/c they didn't have American Idol on last night to laugh at. I don't know. My parents are coming up this weekend. My mom is bringing cake. I like cake -- especially this kind of cake. I'm not really sure what we're going to do... maybe go see a movie or something. They're not going to be here long... good thing too -- because there's not much to do in the god forsaken hell hole.

I'm so pissed at the CEO and his mentally abusive treatment of all the employees. He sent me an email at 9pm last night asking me to respond, okay ... so I get in at 8am ... answer some emails I got before that one... I run around get a couple other things done. Get back to my email ... do some work to get the guy the information he needs. Shoot him an email. Next email I open is from the CEO at 9am saying "I send you this to you yesterday. Let's go please." Saying that I am not timely in my response (ummm I guess What the hell? So I left, got a latte and came back. The newest one of me -- I don't think understood why I was so mad. But they've only been there like two months are an still in the honeymoon phase. Everything just pisses me off to the max anymore. She also hasn't been on the recieving end of the mental and emotional abuse for the past year and a half. She hasn't seen any of it yet. I told her "I don't think this happe...

I wish that I could travel to all the countries in Yakko's world song. If you don't know what I'm talking about see this clip: http://www.metacafe.com/watch/37181/yakkos_world/ What would be even more amazing is if I could memorize it (especially since I'm not even going to try...) I have to comment on American Idol. I think people watch it to make people feel better about themselves. The only people that they tape are not anyone who's actually good, because that's not very entertaining. But instead they put the most pathetic people on TV. And people watch, because most people are smart enough to admit to themselves that they are not good singers. But everyone knows that person who thinks that they are a good singer, and singes all the time. Rather, when you actually have to listen to the cat screams, you want to start clawing at the walls with your little nibs of fingernails in order to get out. You would rather claw down to your little finger bones t...

Looking for a new job sucks. It's so difficult to find something new because it takes so much time an energy, and let me tell you, I'm beat -- physically and emotionally -- by the time 5pm rolls around. It's hard to work up the energy to do all the legwork and networking it takes to find something new. The balls have started to roll down the lanes, I hope that I knock a few pins down, and eventually get a strike. That's all that matters, not getting a strike on the first roll, but rather just getting one. I know that a new job will not solve all of my career unhappiness. But the more I think about it, the more I realize that the unhappiness at the top really tricks down and negatively effects everyone else. Overall the company is doing well, but we still have a long ways to go. At least I'm partially vested in my stock options at this point, so I can basically leave whenever and buy out whatever is possible. Now I just have to get the couple grand together t...

I'm a little obsessed with food lately. My new knives make it amazing to chop anything. ANYTHING!!! I wish everyone got to experience it. I have to say I can make some pretty tasty things sometimes. I already have meat dishes planned out for the rest of the week (Jerk Chicken is soaking in the spices and Marniated Salmon is marinading in the frig waiting for me to cook them up!) I just need some added veggie dish to my left over Crab enchaladias (really easy if you have left over imitation crab (or real crab if you want to spend the money) -- just combine with some diced onions, crab, and cheddar cheese. Then make a roux -- add some milk -- cook until thick - lightly spice-- add part to crab mix... put mix in tortillas -- top with sauce & more cheese... tasty!) So I was trying to think of what to make with the veggies and just decided to dice some up and cook them lightly in a pan. Man did it turn out amazingly tasty! I was suprised. Just pan up with a little butter ...

I had the thought today that life is really just about little pleasure. The big things in life are great, but don't happen all the often. So you really have to live for the little pleasures in life. Some of my little pleasure are things like laughing at someone when they say something stupid. This is kind of tricky though, because you don't want to piss off someone at work (which is usually where you hear lot of stupid things said everyday.) So there is some definite skill involved in this. (Who knew? You need skill to gain pleasure... Well I guess you can be unskilled and gain pleasure -- but it's always better with a little skill.) There are also material things that make me happy. Having a living room that looks like a real living room, is very nice. The fact that my TV has a stand instead of milk crates, and I have a rug... AMAZING. I like the sweaty accomplishment after going to the gym or biking. It's like the sweat is a figurative and literal sign of the...

Working really sucks. After having a week off for the holidays, coming back just shows you how much it sucks all over again. I would hate for my boss to know what I really do all day. They can't fire me for idle staring at the walls, about 4 times a day, for a least an hour. I mean, they haven't fired the old guy who clips his fingernails and takes naps in his cubicle yet. They're not going to fire me for staring... I'm really glad that they don't track website access ( websuduko .com baby!) or block AIM. Then I would be royally screwed. I wouldn't even appear busy then. At least with the wonders of the Internet it at least appears like I'm researching something important, some fact that that don't apparent in the miles of documentation we already have lying around about the subject, it's so important of a fact that I have to spend half an hour looking it up on google ... getting distracted and then surfing the BBC website to look at the 100 things ...

That's right another one. 35 people since I started 15 months ago.... a little sad I think. A little funny too.

Ops there goes another one! (from my company) We gained three and lost one... I guess that's a gross gain of 2.... There are still something like 15 positions still open for about 63 people.... that's kind of a large percentage. I don't really have much else to say ... I could list off all the things that I did... (went to work, did my laundry, made dinner ( OMG my new knives are amazing!!!!), continued to clean/organize, paid some bills...) but that seems a little trite. I have to say the knives my brothers got me for Christmas are absolutely AMAZING! They are very well crafted, nicely balanced, sharp, and generally preform really well. I would definitely recommend Wusthof as a knife manufacture. They even got me a sharpener! The TV-stand and rug that I got for Christmas really helps complete my living room. It is actually starting to look like a real living room instead of a college dorm room. The bathroom looks nice, the kitchen is well stocked with appliances an...

I definatly do not want to go back to work tomorrow. I enjoyed having a vacation, and I have tons more stuff that I want to get done at my apartment. I thought that getting back at 2pm would be enough, but it really only hit the tip of the iceburg of things I need to do. I guess that I'll have to do a bit more tomorrow after work. Ahhh I hate long to-do lists. Note to self, please do not leave apartment a complete reck before you leave for a while. Instead, spend a few minutes and clean things up, so that you do not come home from a horrible 6 hour drive to a very messy and slightly dirty apartment. Also, please remember to start the dishwasher before you leave, so that it doesn't smell next time. Well, there's another wedding on the radar. It's crazy how many of my friends are getting married. Practically all of my vacation for the next two years is allocated to attending weddings. I've about had enough of it already. Another note to self: It's okay t...

I updated my Picasa from Christmas. It's just a gross upload -- and I only got about halfway through adding comments. But you may or may not find them amusing. I thought about driving back to Rochester today, but then decided that it would be a very bad idea. Not because I was hung over so much, as because I don't want to have to drive anywhere. I don't want to admit that my vacation is over, the new year has started, and I need to actually try to complete my resolutions for the new year. So, I've only gotten as far as starting my laundry and pilling up my stuff. New years was pretty chill... we didn't really do much. Hung out at Joe & Jamie's, drank, ate, met some random people, saw Andy & Kate. I have to admit that watching people play the Wii was freaking HILARIOUS! Boxing is especially amusing. I wish I would have taken video of it just so that when life starts to suck -- you can pull out the Video and laugh at it. Got a few phone calls ...