New Years Resolutions
Each year I struggle with one simple thing: Do I make a resolution that I know I will eventually break in the hopes to improve myself? Or should I just not even try?
In the end I typically make one in the hopes that I will, this year, carry it out and actually improve myself. I'm not sure that I need a lot of improving though (ha!)
But not making a resolution would mean that I am giving up hope on myself, and that I don't think I will ever be able to improve. This thought, it a little sad to say the least. So, inevitablly I will make some resolution and really try to keep it for about three months. Three months seems to be my attention span for anything. Being really interested in going to the gym, wanting to learn german, learning to cook, etc. etc. etc. But at the same time, maybe this time, I really will be interested in something longer than three months this time. Maybe it will be my life's passion and I can figure out how to make money off of it and start my own company and I will be extemely happy.... Right... but you know, I can hope, and I can keep trying to improve.
Though, I'm not really sure what my resolutions should be this year. I've always thought that writing a novel would be cool, but at the same time I'm not uber committed to it. Look at this blog... it's just a journal basically... This will be my 150th post since I started it the august before last. That's like only a couple times a month on average. I do go in spurts where I am really interested in it and post every day, then I loose interest and don't post for a month, or life gets crazy and I don't have time ... Insert other excuses here.
I think maybe, that I should call these things goals instead of resolutions. Resolutions sound too much like Do or Die to me, and goals seem more like an achieveable thing. I'm much better if I set goals that are actually achieveable, with a timeline in between for mini-goals, than if I just set one enormous goal that seems like a 70 year old woman trying to climb Mt. Rainer with a walker. But if I can be a little kid trying to climb a sledding hill -- then trying to climb to the next peak and the next... then maybe I will actually make it to the top of the mountain without giving up or dying.
So what could my goals be if I am really dreaming big? I could run a marathon with my uncles this year, I could try to write a novel, Learn to speak German fluently, Find a new Job and move to a warm city, Take a awesome vacation, Volunteer somewhere, find a new hobby, compete in a biking race, or maybe I should just lie around and do nothing for a long time... oh wait -- that's why my Christmas Vacation has mostly been.
It's always hard to take a look at your life and try to figure it out. I think I over analyze my life too often -- making me even more anxious about what I'm doing and where I'm going. So maybe my New Year's Resolution should be to set a few goals with achievable time lines and then not re-set goals until next year.
That of course would require me to complete those new years resolutions.
Good luck with that one.
In the end I typically make one in the hopes that I will, this year, carry it out and actually improve myself. I'm not sure that I need a lot of improving though (ha!)
But not making a resolution would mean that I am giving up hope on myself, and that I don't think I will ever be able to improve. This thought, it a little sad to say the least. So, inevitablly I will make some resolution and really try to keep it for about three months. Three months seems to be my attention span for anything. Being really interested in going to the gym, wanting to learn german, learning to cook, etc. etc. etc. But at the same time, maybe this time, I really will be interested in something longer than three months this time. Maybe it will be my life's passion and I can figure out how to make money off of it and start my own company and I will be extemely happy.... Right... but you know, I can hope, and I can keep trying to improve.
Though, I'm not really sure what my resolutions should be this year. I've always thought that writing a novel would be cool, but at the same time I'm not uber committed to it. Look at this blog... it's just a journal basically... This will be my 150th post since I started it the august before last. That's like only a couple times a month on average. I do go in spurts where I am really interested in it and post every day, then I loose interest and don't post for a month, or life gets crazy and I don't have time ... Insert other excuses here.
I think maybe, that I should call these things goals instead of resolutions. Resolutions sound too much like Do or Die to me, and goals seem more like an achieveable thing. I'm much better if I set goals that are actually achieveable, with a timeline in between for mini-goals, than if I just set one enormous goal that seems like a 70 year old woman trying to climb Mt. Rainer with a walker. But if I can be a little kid trying to climb a sledding hill -- then trying to climb to the next peak and the next... then maybe I will actually make it to the top of the mountain without giving up or dying.
So what could my goals be if I am really dreaming big? I could run a marathon with my uncles this year, I could try to write a novel, Learn to speak German fluently, Find a new Job and move to a warm city, Take a awesome vacation, Volunteer somewhere, find a new hobby, compete in a biking race, or maybe I should just lie around and do nothing for a long time... oh wait -- that's why my Christmas Vacation has mostly been.
It's always hard to take a look at your life and try to figure it out. I think I over analyze my life too often -- making me even more anxious about what I'm doing and where I'm going. So maybe my New Year's Resolution should be to set a few goals with achievable time lines and then not re-set goals until next year.
That of course would require me to complete those new years resolutions.
Good luck with that one.
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