Wow
As of next Wednesday we will have 56 people working at my company. Let's just say I was the 37th employee about 10.5 months ago. That's almost 10 employees in less than a year. And people wonder why work is difficult -- there really is that much growth that needs to be managed.
Though I think I've come up with a good analogy lately (and explination for my increasingly bad attitude at work.) I like to compare management with parenting. Parents tell their kids what is right and wrong, give them goals and guidelines for how they should live their lives, and let them go live it and just give guidance along the way. My work, however, is missing that critical 2nd step -- there is little goals or guidance given -- so it is hard to grow. It's like having a parent constantly yell at you -- but not knowing their expectations. It's difficult.
*Sigh* it's hard to think back about what I've done in the last year -- and realized what/how little I've really accomplished.
Am I happy about where I'm at? Not really. At work I'm frusterated by the lack of bigger picture goals and guidance. It's like you're in a pool -- you don't know how to swim -- so you flaill your arms in a vain attempts to keep your head above water. You keep bobbing up and down where your nose is covered, then it's not, and you just can't tell if you are making any progress of getting out of the pool.
This is probably a good weekend to take better stock of my life and my long term goals -- and just start doing something about getting there. I think I should learn some German -- i realized today that Italian would have been a good thing to learn too; Dutch too come to think of it. Maybe I can learn enough of all three to ask for the Sales person in that language... it sucks making an international call when you don't know who is going to pick up. The problem too, is that I know enough French to actually talk to a french person on the phone -- but do I ever have to call someone random in France NO!
I want to start doing something useful with my free time. It seems really ridiculous that I have all this free time and don't do anything useful with it. I should find something useful to spend my time on -- then I might have something interesting to add to this blog.
Though I think I've come up with a good analogy lately (and explination for my increasingly bad attitude at work.) I like to compare management with parenting. Parents tell their kids what is right and wrong, give them goals and guidelines for how they should live their lives, and let them go live it and just give guidance along the way. My work, however, is missing that critical 2nd step -- there is little goals or guidance given -- so it is hard to grow. It's like having a parent constantly yell at you -- but not knowing their expectations. It's difficult.
*Sigh* it's hard to think back about what I've done in the last year -- and realized what/how little I've really accomplished.
Am I happy about where I'm at? Not really. At work I'm frusterated by the lack of bigger picture goals and guidance. It's like you're in a pool -- you don't know how to swim -- so you flaill your arms in a vain attempts to keep your head above water. You keep bobbing up and down where your nose is covered, then it's not, and you just can't tell if you are making any progress of getting out of the pool.
This is probably a good weekend to take better stock of my life and my long term goals -- and just start doing something about getting there. I think I should learn some German -- i realized today that Italian would have been a good thing to learn too; Dutch too come to think of it. Maybe I can learn enough of all three to ask for the Sales person in that language... it sucks making an international call when you don't know who is going to pick up. The problem too, is that I know enough French to actually talk to a french person on the phone -- but do I ever have to call someone random in France NO!
I want to start doing something useful with my free time. It seems really ridiculous that I have all this free time and don't do anything useful with it. I should find something useful to spend my time on -- then I might have something interesting to add to this blog.
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