Marginalized

I have never ever felt as marginazlied as I have at work so far today. It is almost unfathomable. Part of me is mad, part of me is just really sad. I feel as if no solutions are being created. The problem exists -- but instead of facing it and doing something about it; the company ignores it and just hopes it goes away. I guess this is just another straw on the camel's back -- which just makes it ever apparent that there aren't many other options other than start looking for another job.

It's funny how much has changed, yet how little. I feel as if I have done the best I can in the circumstances -- yet I am neither appriciated and only berated for mistakes. I don't know how to jump up and down any louder to get any relief. 6 months ago I felt like there were opportunities for me to advance in the company and in my career. In the last 3 months it seems as if all doors have been closed and I am only viewed in my current capacity rather than seeing my potential. It's very frusterating and very dis-heartening.

I guess it's always hard to face the fact that you made a mistake in where you chose to work. At this point I think this company has been more detrimental to me than any benifits that it has supplied. The old addage: whatever doesn't kill you makes you strong -- not always true. In this situation whatever doesn't kill you embitters you towards any future.