Work Bitch
Ever come home from work and just feel miserable about what you do and frusterating with work? Then you start thinking ... Why am I working here? Yeah it's definately been one of those days. Typically I really like where I work. I like the people. I like the product. I like most of our customers. I think our technology is really cool. Not today. Today I am fed up with the people and just shit. It's really frusterating to work your ass off to try to help the company -- and a select few drop the ball. Sadly, which such a small company, those few dropping the ball -- can mean a major drop in business. It's gotten to the point where the lack of a timely response from certain individuals is costing us business. That's just not acceptable. Needless to say -- I've been a little pissed today. This particular person is at the top of my fire/leaving list... I've gotten 2 so far since I've been at my comany. One other person has gotten two -- if I get this one I'm back on top.
It's definately one of those days where you start to surf Monster to see if there's anything out there that sounds remotely interesting...
On another note: Another one bites the dust... another one of my friends is getting married. Congrads to eveyone out there who is engaged/married already -- if you haven't gotten married I had better be invited to the wedding. I'm still not there in my life where I want that long term committment. I guess it all comes down to upbringing. I don't want the same thing my parents have -- I don't think I could do that for 25+ years. Thus, I'm rather hesitant to step into something so life defining -- and life changing. I don't know when I'd be ready if ever. I'd rather be alone than go through what I've seen so many married/divorcees go through. I don't want that out of life. Unlike business there are no money back gaurentees in life.
It's definately been a trying week. Looking back I keep thinking "what happens if I would have done this instead." Not regret really -- but just thinking about how my life would have changed if I would have made different decisions -- even like making a different decision a year ago -- how would things have turned out. I think those are the worst thought -- those thoughts of self doubt where you start questioning ever decision you ever made in life.
At least I had a good work out today. I definately took some of my frusterating out on the weights today. I have a feeling that I'm going to be a little sore tomorrow -- I pushed it just a bit. I definately could have used like another hour of hard exercise to get all my frusterating and aggression out. Days like today -- I really want a punching bag -- a litterally one -- not a figurative one.
I think I'm going to try to do something fun for a little while and then go to bed. I'm exhausted and still frusterated.
It's definately one of those days where you start to surf Monster to see if there's anything out there that sounds remotely interesting...
On another note: Another one bites the dust... another one of my friends is getting married. Congrads to eveyone out there who is engaged/married already -- if you haven't gotten married I had better be invited to the wedding. I'm still not there in my life where I want that long term committment. I guess it all comes down to upbringing. I don't want the same thing my parents have -- I don't think I could do that for 25+ years. Thus, I'm rather hesitant to step into something so life defining -- and life changing. I don't know when I'd be ready if ever. I'd rather be alone than go through what I've seen so many married/divorcees go through. I don't want that out of life. Unlike business there are no money back gaurentees in life.
It's definately been a trying week. Looking back I keep thinking "what happens if I would have done this instead." Not regret really -- but just thinking about how my life would have changed if I would have made different decisions -- even like making a different decision a year ago -- how would things have turned out. I think those are the worst thought -- those thoughts of self doubt where you start questioning ever decision you ever made in life.
At least I had a good work out today. I definately took some of my frusterating out on the weights today. I have a feeling that I'm going to be a little sore tomorrow -- I pushed it just a bit. I definately could have used like another hour of hard exercise to get all my frusterating and aggression out. Days like today -- I really want a punching bag -- a litterally one -- not a figurative one.
I think I'm going to try to do something fun for a little while and then go to bed. I'm exhausted and still frusterated.
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