Baby Finances

Ever interview someone and think afterwards... that was just a huge waste of my life? Definately how I felt today. Over 45 minutes of not getting my questions answered. I felt like after the interview I had more questions than before -- and I had a lot of questions before the interview. He was a really nice guy -- someone that could be cool to work with -- but just talked a lot and never really provided me any solid answers. He took every question to be a rehtorical question. So ... "how do you motivate your employees?" He then proceeds to go on a 20 minute speal about the yankees' manager and turned the question back to me asking me how to motivate super overpaid players who are premadonnas. Um excuse me -- this was your question and there is an answer. THings like "I prefer to motivate my employees by example." Or "I like to motivate people by rewarding them for good behavor/good work/etc." Not "how do you motivate the yankees baseball ...

I feel like there is something fishy going on at work... not somethign serious like the company going under or something. More on the order of hiring... like they are not telling me everything... If you read this I just want to know! It's like telling me that you have a big secret -- but refuse to tell me what the secret is. You tant me with things like "it's sooo good -- you'll be so suprised." But still don't tell me what it is! It's a bit annyoing. I have little patience and it displays itself in many ways. I think one of my biggest career fears is acting too hastily. While I don't want to wait around forever -- I know I'm impatient and thus I have to tough stuff out longer. I just want them to hire these people -- and quit fighting about it. Hire them -- I'll help train them and then start moving on to other things that are more interesting and less annoying. There are so many things I'd like to do if given the time to really do...

You've seen the Pixar film A Bug's Life right? The very first scene -- where the ant manger is coaching the ants to walk around the leaf -- that's my work life. So it basically goes down like this: OMG at leaf? What do we do? There's this small obsticle in our path!!! I have no idea what to do!! There's a leaf in my way. The line is getting even further ahead of me!! What do I do? There's a leaf in my path!!!! The manger comes along "Look in my eyes, follow my eyes -- we are going around the leaf!" Working ant: Around the leaf? We can do that? That's my job... in a nutshell. I lead people around the leaf. QED: I'm a bug.

Definately avoiding facing any issues lately -- avoidance seems like the best bet most of the time. The frusteration continues at work. Though some things seem to be getting better ... progress is so slow ... cover ups are going on and it just sucks. I want a vacation. Or maybe just a day off. I might just call in for a "personal" day tomorrow -- and take the day off work. I hate feeling checked up on and look over -- espeically by a person who is not my direct supervisor -- or even my supervisor's supervisor. It really pisses me off. If I was making mistakes or not getting my work done that would be one thing. If I'm not donig anythign wrong and you are just trying to get information out of me ... fuck you. And do not touch me ever at work. Don't pat me on the shoulder or the arm. I'm not your child. I'm an adult. Unless I'm dating you, have been close friends with you for more than a year, or are my mother -- don't touch me. I hate p...

Ever come home from work and just feel miserable about what you do and frusterating with work? Then you start thinking ... Why am I working here? Yeah it's definately been one of those days. Typically I really like where I work. I like the people. I like the product. I like most of our customers. I think our technology is really cool. Not today. Today I am fed up with the people and just shit. It's really frusterating to work your ass off to try to help the company -- and a select few drop the ball. Sadly, which such a small company, those few dropping the ball -- can mean a major drop in business. It's gotten to the point where the lack of a timely response from certain individuals is costing us business. That's just not acceptable. Needless to say -- I've been a little pissed today. This particular person is at the top of my fire/leaving list... I've gotten 2 so far since I've been at my comany. One other person has gotten two -- if I get t...