Baby Finances

I just got home from work and it's 8:30pm. This is constant. The only day I didn't do this is before Kevin left. Sight unseen I have left a ton of unfinished work. The stress, overwork, and subsequent exhaustion is really hard to handle. I don't know anyone else working crazy hours like this when they are just out of school. I would by no way classify myself as a workaholic b/c I take no work home with me, I don't come in on the weekends, and I avoid doing stuff -- IE work is not my life. However lately it has been taking over my life. My brain hurts. I'm hungry and I'm too tired to actually make something, and I've been eating out a lot b/c I haven't had time to make my lunch much less eat my lunch. I think I'm going to bed. I finally started cleaning up the appartment. It has been a huge! mess since before thanksgiving. I need to go to the laundrymat soon -- but I think it's going to have to wait until this weekend. And since there...

So I stopped at us going to a movie -- We then went to Fazzoliis -- which I'm not a fan of -- but Since I wasn't eating I didn't really care. Called up Nick and hung out at his house for a while. I have to say watching him and Mike on Reading Rainbow was amazingly amusing. The best part was the movie that they did for a Shakespearian English project, cutting themselves and their voices into Julius Cesear. It was amusing and really inventive -- not originally -- but inventive. Nick then make us leave so that he could play Halo. Speaking of video games I don't really understand them. Everytime I play a video game I think afterwards "Wow, I just wasted X hours of my life doing nothing" so it's hard for me to play on my computer for any length of time without doing something useful. Playing video games either makes me feel guilty for not doing anything useful or they're just plain not that entertaining. Specifically I don't understand the appea...

Went home for Thanksgiving. It snowed on the way home -- though it was a quick trip only about 5.5 hours. Went to a movie with Josh -- Harry Potter was just one of those movies where it tried to do too much. Some of my fav moments from the book were not included. Nothing about Winkey was included -- which I think could be harmful to future movies. They changed some plot points -- and I just think they either did a bad job at the screenplay or at editing. There was no real cadence to the movie -- just a huge banging of random drums with no real beat to it. It's always nice to see HP on screen - but I think it could have been better. Thanksgiving was good. I have to say it's amazing that we as Americans have a whole day devoted to glutony. No other country has a holiday that consists of eating as much as possible then watching sport and drinking beer. No one. Went to another movie with Josh -- Rent -- again mixed feelings as I think this play is passe in the fact that th...

If only I could get someone to drive me from work to home. And by home I mean my parents home, in Toledo. I say this because I would really rather be doing a lot of things tomorrow rather than driving. Namely reading, drinking, watching tv, drinking, watching a movie, drinking, sleeping, drinking, I think I would even prefer work over driving. I just have the worst feeling that tomorrow is going to be especially horrible. Oh and Dear work: Do not try to take advantage of me or my good will. I will push back. I will employ my girl powers on you, like crying. Yes I usually crack jokes with you, I ususally laugh and make jokes with you, sometimes I even spit my ire at you; do I ever get emotional and even give you the hint of crying? No. This means it's going to be really really really uncomfortable for all you boys out there when I pull out my girl tricks and start crying. Don't make me stoop to your level. Oh and Pat, if you read this. Please record "The Biggest L...

There is one amazing thing that has started to happen at work -- I'm not really sleepy when I start work. The first month or two were really rought when it came to getting up early -- I was sleepy almost every day. Now it's not so difficult -- I think the more frequent Starbucks stops before work are also helping the matter. I still haven't talked to my boss about the whole Manager issue -- though I did get a few minutes to talk to the CEO about it. Basically I just explained that I wasn't interested in the longterm and that I didn't think I would be a good choice long term for the company either - but that I, of course, would do whatever needed to be done in the short term to keep the company going, and if I didn't know how to do something I would figure it out. I want to talk to my boss to see what their long term expectations are of me and where they see me in 5 years in the company -- because it seems like they have little or no plans for their employees...

I don't know if this is necessarily the forum .. but I have been very careful to to disclose at work that I have a blog, much less include enough personal information to really make it identifying. So here's the story.... and if you keep up with my blog you'll know even more info. So, this manager guy that I hate (I've written a few letters to him in this blog in the past) -- has taken the last few days off work saying that he "threw his back out". Okay that's fine, whatever -- he's kinda old so that's easy to understand. SO lalal everyone goes on with their normal life. Today, he comes in during the morning for a few hours, promptly loads a printer into his car, apparently he brought a personal printer to have for use in the office ... weird but whatever. Weirder that he supposively threw his back out and is not lifting a heavy duty printer.... He then pullings the Customer Service Reps into his office and tells him that he has decided to lea...

I've been trying to get a lot of work done today -- but it's been proving near impossible. It's so noisy where I'm at. One manager is "talking" to one of his underlings -- and when he talks you can hear it half way through the company. People are also on their break in the common room -- which basically results in people talking emphatically -- boardering on screaming. It's really annoying. I can't concentrate on anything. It's hard to do work when you can't think. So I figured that I would write in my blog for a bit. I guess I shouldn't freak out too much b/c the bosses are away this week -- so the employees should play -- but I thought with the bosses away that I would be able to do a lot more work -- but not today. Ehh I'm a little sad that I don't get to go to Cleveland next weekend to visit w/Josh & Co. But at the same time I'm sadder for his situation. Poor Joshy, I hope everything works out for his mom. This ...

I've got 45 min left to today -- and it's really going slowly. I hate people who make assumptions -- especially in an engineering company!!!!! and they rant about stuff they don't understand. If you don't get it don't bitch -- ask a question. People here are very diliberate and try to look at every side of the siutation so no mistakes are made. If you would have thought about it longer -- you might have figured it out all by yourself! I hate having to explain everything like you are tweleve. Good thing I belong to a gym, I'd be a very angry person if I didn't have some outlet. I'm excited about dinner tonight too. I'm making Pad Thai! mmmm To make my day even better I had Mango Chicken Curry for lunch! My favorite -- and for an afternoon snack -- I had hot chocolate and girl scout cookies. Who could want a better food day?!?!? My brain hurts.

There's too much to do and not enough time to do it. The end of the year crunch has begun and it's only the begining of November. Sucks to be a supplier. It's frusterating on my part b/c I always get stuck with the customers no one else wants. And I have to deal with the management guy no one else likes -- and act nice to him. I really should get a career in acting -- I'm very good at it, even some of my co-workers are fooled by me. I must be really good if the people I work with everyday don't know I'm faking it. Maybe I'll try out for a play or something. I wonder if I could get paid for it. The only downside is that I hate dealing with most people -- and have to have a fake happy attitude around them -- thus the learning to act well. I would have to deal with a lot of people as an actor -- b/c -- well you have to act with others. That would make me angry inside and I would have to go to the gym more often -- which isn't wholey a bad thing.....

It's unbelieveable how horrible the drivers are in Rochester. It's like these people have never gone to drivers ed, or even had to take a driving test. On a short trip to Target this weekend (it's only about a 10-15 minute drive) I almost got hit by three different people on the way there. I even had to swerve into uncoming traffic so that I wouldn't get hit by one old lady who was turning right on red -- into the left lane of the two lanes going south!! If she would have just turned into the right lane I wouldn't have been almost hit by the Civic going the other way. I almost got plowed over by another guy on the way home less than an hour later. I don't know if people are just stupid here, unaware of their surroundings, or just plain bad drivers. It's just ridiculous. My bed is so comfortable I don't want to get out of it. It's a struggle to leave it's comfy warmness every morning. If I could work in bed I would. Hell if I could bring ...

I really have no motivation to do anything today. I don't want to go to work, the gym, go do my laundry, or anything else. It's just one of those days I would have rather just stayed in bed. It's hard to want to work here when they keep pouring more work on you. Some days it's alreay really difficult to keep up, and I haven't even been here for very long. I have nothing else to say, much less anything interesting to say.

Dear CS Manager, You really are dumb and annoy me. Instead of asking questions when you don't get something, or there is some confusion, you instead try to call a meeting. What is a meeting to me? It's a waste of my time, and it's a waste of company resources. If something is in my job description don't you think I'm all over that? I am, so if you have a question about something that I handle, please do not call a meeting with the CEO, CFO, yourself and me, it's wasting our time. Especially when I can solve your whole "mystery" in an email that takes up less than a page. You're such a dumb-ass please think before you act. The especially includes new "system operations" that take more "transaction time" -- namely wasting my time. This espeically includes trying to get rid of things that you don't want to deal with. Instead of discussing the idea with people who actually use it, you discuss it with me. I'm not y...