Baby Finances

I've been really remiss lately about updating the blog. The holidays really got in the way -- along with the crazy work schedule before the end of the year. Well... today is much different -- there is litterally nothing to do. I guess I could come up with stuff to do, and I probably will put a little bit of effort in this afternoon to do something so it at least looks like I did something while everyone else was gone. I just feel like complete crap today -- like someone ran me over with a truck -- and then is trying to spoon my brains out. AKA I think I'm getting a sinus infection. I can't hear well, my throat hurts (but not like strep throat hurts), massive sinus headache, general malasie, and a mild fever. Clearly -- a sinus infection -- again. (Aren't you glad I got to gross you out by listing all of my sypmtoms??) Christmas was pretty typical -- Goetzfeast, X-mas Eve, Christmas -- pretty boring. Though my dad was really annoying. I guess he was in one of his...

I spent the majority of my day yesterday working on something because the CEO kept bugging me about it and asked me to deal with it. However, other people in management had also been dealing with it -- but had not communicated anything to anyone. Then I try to be like this is what I did -- now it's time for you to play with it -- and the non-CEO management basically tells me "that's not what we talked about yesterday -- and you didn't need to do that." So I basically wasted a whole days worth of work dealing with it -- all for naught. I'm glad things were told to me. I love wasting my time. The whole situation makes me so angry. If the CEO would stop micromanaging stuff would get done a lot faster and with less time wasting. He's always bitching about wasting resources -- but he himself inadvertantly does so by circumventing the other management personel. Instead of letting stuff filter down he just goes to the bottom first. It's such a waste....

I just got home from work and it's 8:30pm. This is constant. The only day I didn't do this is before Kevin left. Sight unseen I have left a ton of unfinished work. The stress, overwork, and subsequent exhaustion is really hard to handle. I don't know anyone else working crazy hours like this when they are just out of school. I would by no way classify myself as a workaholic b/c I take no work home with me, I don't come in on the weekends, and I avoid doing stuff -- IE work is not my life. However lately it has been taking over my life. My brain hurts. I'm hungry and I'm too tired to actually make something, and I've been eating out a lot b/c I haven't had time to make my lunch much less eat my lunch. I think I'm going to bed. I finally started cleaning up the appartment. It has been a huge! mess since before thanksgiving. I need to go to the laundrymat soon -- but I think it's going to have to wait until this weekend. And since there...

So I stopped at us going to a movie -- We then went to Fazzoliis -- which I'm not a fan of -- but Since I wasn't eating I didn't really care. Called up Nick and hung out at his house for a while. I have to say watching him and Mike on Reading Rainbow was amazingly amusing. The best part was the movie that they did for a Shakespearian English project, cutting themselves and their voices into Julius Cesear. It was amusing and really inventive -- not originally -- but inventive. Nick then make us leave so that he could play Halo. Speaking of video games I don't really understand them. Everytime I play a video game I think afterwards "Wow, I just wasted X hours of my life doing nothing" so it's hard for me to play on my computer for any length of time without doing something useful. Playing video games either makes me feel guilty for not doing anything useful or they're just plain not that entertaining. Specifically I don't understand the appea...

Went home for Thanksgiving. It snowed on the way home -- though it was a quick trip only about 5.5 hours. Went to a movie with Josh -- Harry Potter was just one of those movies where it tried to do too much. Some of my fav moments from the book were not included. Nothing about Winkey was included -- which I think could be harmful to future movies. They changed some plot points -- and I just think they either did a bad job at the screenplay or at editing. There was no real cadence to the movie -- just a huge banging of random drums with no real beat to it. It's always nice to see HP on screen - but I think it could have been better. Thanksgiving was good. I have to say it's amazing that we as Americans have a whole day devoted to glutony. No other country has a holiday that consists of eating as much as possible then watching sport and drinking beer. No one. Went to another movie with Josh -- Rent -- again mixed feelings as I think this play is passe in the fact that th...

If only I could get someone to drive me from work to home. And by home I mean my parents home, in Toledo. I say this because I would really rather be doing a lot of things tomorrow rather than driving. Namely reading, drinking, watching tv, drinking, watching a movie, drinking, sleeping, drinking, I think I would even prefer work over driving. I just have the worst feeling that tomorrow is going to be especially horrible. Oh and Dear work: Do not try to take advantage of me or my good will. I will push back. I will employ my girl powers on you, like crying. Yes I usually crack jokes with you, I ususally laugh and make jokes with you, sometimes I even spit my ire at you; do I ever get emotional and even give you the hint of crying? No. This means it's going to be really really really uncomfortable for all you boys out there when I pull out my girl tricks and start crying. Don't make me stoop to your level. Oh and Pat, if you read this. Please record "The Biggest L...

There is one amazing thing that has started to happen at work -- I'm not really sleepy when I start work. The first month or two were really rought when it came to getting up early -- I was sleepy almost every day. Now it's not so difficult -- I think the more frequent Starbucks stops before work are also helping the matter. I still haven't talked to my boss about the whole Manager issue -- though I did get a few minutes to talk to the CEO about it. Basically I just explained that I wasn't interested in the longterm and that I didn't think I would be a good choice long term for the company either - but that I, of course, would do whatever needed to be done in the short term to keep the company going, and if I didn't know how to do something I would figure it out. I want to talk to my boss to see what their long term expectations are of me and where they see me in 5 years in the company -- because it seems like they have little or no plans for their employees...

I don't know if this is necessarily the forum .. but I have been very careful to to disclose at work that I have a blog, much less include enough personal information to really make it identifying. So here's the story.... and if you keep up with my blog you'll know even more info. So, this manager guy that I hate (I've written a few letters to him in this blog in the past) -- has taken the last few days off work saying that he "threw his back out". Okay that's fine, whatever -- he's kinda old so that's easy to understand. SO lalal everyone goes on with their normal life. Today, he comes in during the morning for a few hours, promptly loads a printer into his car, apparently he brought a personal printer to have for use in the office ... weird but whatever. Weirder that he supposively threw his back out and is not lifting a heavy duty printer.... He then pullings the Customer Service Reps into his office and tells him that he has decided to lea...

I've been trying to get a lot of work done today -- but it's been proving near impossible. It's so noisy where I'm at. One manager is "talking" to one of his underlings -- and when he talks you can hear it half way through the company. People are also on their break in the common room -- which basically results in people talking emphatically -- boardering on screaming. It's really annoying. I can't concentrate on anything. It's hard to do work when you can't think. So I figured that I would write in my blog for a bit. I guess I shouldn't freak out too much b/c the bosses are away this week -- so the employees should play -- but I thought with the bosses away that I would be able to do a lot more work -- but not today. Ehh I'm a little sad that I don't get to go to Cleveland next weekend to visit w/Josh & Co. But at the same time I'm sadder for his situation. Poor Joshy, I hope everything works out for his mom. This ...

I've got 45 min left to today -- and it's really going slowly. I hate people who make assumptions -- especially in an engineering company!!!!! and they rant about stuff they don't understand. If you don't get it don't bitch -- ask a question. People here are very diliberate and try to look at every side of the siutation so no mistakes are made. If you would have thought about it longer -- you might have figured it out all by yourself! I hate having to explain everything like you are tweleve. Good thing I belong to a gym, I'd be a very angry person if I didn't have some outlet. I'm excited about dinner tonight too. I'm making Pad Thai! mmmm To make my day even better I had Mango Chicken Curry for lunch! My favorite -- and for an afternoon snack -- I had hot chocolate and girl scout cookies. Who could want a better food day?!?!? My brain hurts.

There's too much to do and not enough time to do it. The end of the year crunch has begun and it's only the begining of November. Sucks to be a supplier. It's frusterating on my part b/c I always get stuck with the customers no one else wants. And I have to deal with the management guy no one else likes -- and act nice to him. I really should get a career in acting -- I'm very good at it, even some of my co-workers are fooled by me. I must be really good if the people I work with everyday don't know I'm faking it. Maybe I'll try out for a play or something. I wonder if I could get paid for it. The only downside is that I hate dealing with most people -- and have to have a fake happy attitude around them -- thus the learning to act well. I would have to deal with a lot of people as an actor -- b/c -- well you have to act with others. That would make me angry inside and I would have to go to the gym more often -- which isn't wholey a bad thing.....

It's unbelieveable how horrible the drivers are in Rochester. It's like these people have never gone to drivers ed, or even had to take a driving test. On a short trip to Target this weekend (it's only about a 10-15 minute drive) I almost got hit by three different people on the way there. I even had to swerve into uncoming traffic so that I wouldn't get hit by one old lady who was turning right on red -- into the left lane of the two lanes going south!! If she would have just turned into the right lane I wouldn't have been almost hit by the Civic going the other way. I almost got plowed over by another guy on the way home less than an hour later. I don't know if people are just stupid here, unaware of their surroundings, or just plain bad drivers. It's just ridiculous. My bed is so comfortable I don't want to get out of it. It's a struggle to leave it's comfy warmness every morning. If I could work in bed I would. Hell if I could bring ...

I really have no motivation to do anything today. I don't want to go to work, the gym, go do my laundry, or anything else. It's just one of those days I would have rather just stayed in bed. It's hard to want to work here when they keep pouring more work on you. Some days it's alreay really difficult to keep up, and I haven't even been here for very long. I have nothing else to say, much less anything interesting to say.

Dear CS Manager, You really are dumb and annoy me. Instead of asking questions when you don't get something, or there is some confusion, you instead try to call a meeting. What is a meeting to me? It's a waste of my time, and it's a waste of company resources. If something is in my job description don't you think I'm all over that? I am, so if you have a question about something that I handle, please do not call a meeting with the CEO, CFO, yourself and me, it's wasting our time. Especially when I can solve your whole "mystery" in an email that takes up less than a page. You're such a dumb-ass please think before you act. The especially includes new "system operations" that take more "transaction time" -- namely wasting my time. This espeically includes trying to get rid of things that you don't want to deal with. Instead of discussing the idea with people who actually use it, you discuss it with me. I'm not y...

I'm about to flip my lid today. If the CS Manager doesn't quit asking me dumb questions, or getting all the dumb-asses who the CSR's either don't understand them with their accent, or ask me dumb ass questions of stuff that is already on our website. It's making me so angry. I can't wait to get to the gym after work today.

Saturday, slept in, went shopping for sheets for the bed Jess gave me (Thanks Jess!), took appart the old bed and moved it to the sun room. Set up the new futon frame. Clearly when I went shopping for sheets it takes me hours and I have to go to ten places. While shopping someone told me there was a 50% off sale at JCPenny, which was only like a block away. So I stopped there and got a nice pair of 450 count Egyption Cotton Sheets -- for $50 -- mad cheap for nice sheets. I always was looking for a screen -- not like a screen door, but a room dividor screen/privacy screen (and yes I like to pronounce it priv-a-cy not prI-va-cy). This is basically because I have a sun room (basically really huge windows from below your knee to above your head), which is attached to my bedroom. It's nice and fine during the winter when the bushes are covering it. But it's close to winter now. The leaves have started to fall -- off the bushes-- in front of the sun room... thus the priv-a-cy screen....

I hate weeks that are not payweeks. It's really annoying to work all week and see nothing for yoru effort. Speaking of effort, I've already started to notice positive changes in my endurance, speed, and my body in general from exercising. I've only been making an effort for a little over 2 weeks, and I can definately go faster and longer than when I first started. It's exciting in it's own way. I do feel a lot better after going to the gym; both because it helps me not be angry with the guy at work, and the endorphins. "Endorphins make you happy, and happy people just don't kill their husbands." It's nice that I'm seeing slight changes after only a few weeks, it helps me to stay motivated and keep going. The only complaint I have is the exercising is freaking boring! There's nothing to do while you're doing it. Your mind is blank and there's not much to think about. There are TV's to watch, radio to listen too, and if y...

I'm really trying to avoid this guy at work, b/c even seeing him down the hall bugs me. It bugs me how he got hired, his personality annoys me, his work style annoys me, his work ethic annoys me, just everything about him. If he comes in un-annouced, or reads stuff over my shoulder again I think I'm going to elbow him in the balls. The whole situation sucks. He sucks at his job, and I can't even say anything. This blows. On a happier note, I'm mad excited about today. I get to meet with my trainer! Yea! I'm excited. I hope it will help me to spice up my workout a bit. Then I wont' be as bored as normal. To stem the borem lately I've been working on on machines located so that I can watch the people in the pool. Watching pool classes go on like "water walking" and "water yoga" are really hilarious. It amuses me to no end. If I didn't have TV's/Radio and watching the pool I would be bored out of my mine. It sucks that ...

This guy at work.... I really hate him. I don't want him to talk to me. I don't like him. I think he does a really bad job at work. I also think he's kinda dumb. He can't figure out how to look stuff up. He's completely uninterested in learning anything new. He covers up anything he doesn't know with a bunch of jargon. He talks a lot, but never says anything. It makes me so angry. Oh and while you're at it, my cube is not your office, you don't own it, please do not treat it like your property. Let me know when you are approaching, do not approach until I acknowledge your presense. AND DO NOT TALK TO ME OR ASK ME QUESTIONS WHILE I AM ON THE PHONE. AND FOR GOD'S SAKE DO NOT MAKE FUN/INSULT OTHER EMPOLYEES IN FRONT OF ME. It's disgusting and unprofessional. Almost as unprofessional as your emails to customers are. Me being so angry with him, was reading an email, I hear him approach, do not turn to talk to him immediately b/c I was in...

So I blew out the bathroom curcuit in my appartment on Monday morning (how you blow out a curcuit with a blow dryer? I don't know.) And I immediately called my landlord to ask him to have the maintance guy flip the switch on the breaker. Clearly I go home on Monday night, and the switch has not been flipped. How difficult is it to flip a switch? So that just chapped my cheeks. So of course I call immediately and leave another message to the effect of "I am just calling to remind you that the breaker switch in my appartment has still not been turned on. I know that it is difficult to flip a switch, and I would put in the time and effort to do it, if I had access to the breaker box. Unfortunately I do not, thus I must rely on your effort, and I know it is a lot of effort to flip a switch. So again, for the second time, I need the curcuit breaker switch filpped. Thanks!" How ridiculous is that? I really hate this landlord. I hate working. What I hate more than wor...

I think I should glue the phone to my ear. That's what it seems like I've been doing all day. Though I did talk to a guy in DC that sounded really cute. I'd fuck him. Other than a crazy work life nothing much has been happening. One of my cousins just scored higher than his brother on the LSAT, GO JEFF GO!. I was happy. I'm glad he did better than his poster-child brother. I think the whole family was rooting for him to do better. Yea for Jeff! I got my Goetzfeast list today, and I got the worst person in the world b/c everything was gifts that included some personal choice. Like I want a sweatshirt, or I want a book about this subject.... well can you tell me the title of teh book you want? Or send me a link of the sweatshirt? Can't you pick out a movie or something like the rest of us? It's Goetzfest it's not supposted to be difficult or take a lot of time, it's just supposed to be fun to get and give stuff. And getting a difficult list doe...

My butt muscles hurt -- litterally. I guess they've been underworked. Though it's always kinda nice to have muscles ache, because then you know that you have been working them, and they are trying to get better, but they are just weak. Yea for butt muscles aching! The garbage truck didn't wake me up today. It was late, or early, or I slept through it. It was very sad. I'm so used to it waking me up I was confused and thought that it wasn't friday. I'm sad that I'm not going home this weekend. Stupid customers. I don't like them.

I can't figure out why one of the management team keeps coming to me to ask me for answers. It's really annoying. It seems like everytime he doesn't know what to do with something, or doesn't understand something -- even when it's not something I'm supposed to do -- stuff I should not even be dealing with, aka non-technical questions. I'm not your boss, I'm not your manager. Why are you asking me? It really just drives me nuts. You've been here for like a month -- over a month -- over a month and a half ago. I don't think I should be telling him how to do things. The other thing that bugs me is that he doesn't think things through, or even attempt to see things from different angle. This always results in an over simplification. Then when he fully figures out the full situation he's always like "oh, this is more complicated than I thought, I'll have to think about this." Don't you think that with the huge numbers...

I hate the last hour of the day. It's the worst when you really don't want to be at work. All I want to do is gone home and do something fun. Anything but actual work today. Maybe I'll stop by Michael's on the way home and try to find some new fun craft. Though I still need to work on my Christmas stocking some more, maybe that is what I will do tonight. It's sad that I'm tired of work already, but it's true. There hasn't been that much challenge in my job lately, and everyone has been really busy and not able to teach me more stuff :-( Now I've been teaching other people stuff, and I have little to no patience for that type of stuff. I'm not a teacher. Other than that today has not been very exciting. Maybe tomorrow my post will be better.

Dear Mr. Heavy Breather Man, I really thought at first that someone had passed gas, so I blew it off. Then I thought there was something wrong with my headphones or the TV signal. But then, then you did it again, right next to me, and I figured you out. You Mr. Heavy Breather Man, would not breath like a normal person at a normal pace. You Mr. Heavy Breather Man would hold your breath in until you looked like you were about to pop with your puffy red face. You would let it out like a dam breaking beneath the heavy water pressure. I started contemplating moving machines because it was so distracting. I never thought someone could breath that loud, but it was almost like an all out yell it was so loud. I couldn't even hear the TV on the especially long ones. Just as I was about to move machines, you got off. It was amazing. It was like you could read my mind. Next time Mr. Heavy Breather Man, feel free to do your three minute and fourty six second work-out next to me. I ...

I really like going to the gym, it's kind of addicting in a weird sort of way. It's almost like having a new boyfriend, but w/0 the good stuff. I obsess about it all day, go after work, and really like it. Then once I leave, I just keep thinking about it, and what I get to do tomorrow. Mmmm gym. I love being able to watch TV or listen to the radio while working out (kudos for new gyms with the plug in equipment, where you just need headphones.) It's nice to be able to watch the news and still get something done. The only bad part is that it takes up time, but I guess I have a lot of time on my hands, and going to the gym is at least useful. I was very sleepy yesterday and went to bed at like 10pm, but I guess that is not that late when you consider that I get up at 6:00am. That's only like 8 hours, not ridiculous. But what is ridiculous is that I sleep 8 hours and am still tired. The only time I am not tired is when I sleep in for a long time on the weekends....

Sunday was an interesting day. Got up, got a paper, read it, worked out, took a shower, came home, at dinner/watched TV. Jess and Scott got here at like midnightish. Yeah for a bigger bed! I'm so sleepy this morning. Work is so frusterating sometimes. There are definately too many cooks in the kitchen. If you ask to many questions you're told "you should take more ownership, and make these decisions". Then you do that and someone else says "well you didn't think about this and this, and lalala". It makes me so mad that there is not a good system in place where you don't have to go to five people to get one thing answered. You shouldn't have to, most of this stuff should be documented. I'm sleepy today. I want to sleep. Hopefully the day will go pretty fast, I'll go to the gym, and life will be good.

Today was great! I joined the YMCA by work, and did a really great workout, and scheduled a personal training session (in two weeks b/c the trainer seems to be mad busy, everyone else must be watching "The Biggest Loser" as well). Then I went to get my haircut. I'm still undecided about if I like the cut or not. Though I will not be revisiting that Salon. It was cheap, but the stylist didn't even finish blow drying my hair, it was still damp when I left the Salon. Not my idea of a good experience, espeically when it's 50 degrees out and I've only got a light sweater thingy on. He did this really weird razor cut, where he basically added layers in with a razor, but the problem with it is that when using the razor I think he cut up too much. Which makes my hair look like an upside down triangle from the front (though it looks really cute from the back. I think it will look better once it grows out a bit. I tried to explain that I wanted some length off,...

I have don't nothing today since I got here. And I'm avoiding doing anything of use today (unless you count cleaning up my desk). I've only answered 2 emails. It's been amazing. I think I might join the YMCA by work this weekend. I really need some motivation to go exercise, and going to a group class, along with paying for it, not to mention trying to get a personl trainer, might be really good motivation. I think a personal trainer could really help keep me motivated to go (since I'd have appointments, I'd have to go, and it would keep me accountable, otherwise I last like 3 or 4 weeks and then punk out -- I haven't been able to make it a habbit yet). I also started cleaning up my appartment last night. After I started I realized how much of a mess it was. I still have quite a bit more cleaning, but it's not that bad, it's just not as nice as it could be. I don't really know what else I'm going to do this weekend. Jess and Scott as su...

So yesterday when driving home my gas light went on... utt ohhh better get gas. So I went to an unfamilar gas station because it was close. Unknowingly I had chosen a station that did not have "Pay-at-the-Pump". This was really confusing because how do you pay for stuff without a credit-card. I never carry any cash. And of course you had to "Pay first". So the conversation went as follow (in a heavy Indian accent). Me: Hi, I'd like to pay with a credit card, I have the black car Him: What do you want. Me: Gas... Him: How much money? Me: I haven't pumped yet. Him: How much you want? Me: Ummm enough to fill the tank Him: How much you spend? Me: However much it costs to fill the tank Him (clearly exasperated with me): Just go pump, then come back. Me (run outside in drizzle and pump gas, run back in): Okay I'm done. Sorry I was really confused I don't remember how to do it without pay at the pump. Him: I remember you, next time you just pump first. ...

My morning routine consists of the following: 1. Alarm rings 2. Hit sooze 3. Alarm goes off again (this time a little louder) 4. Hit sooze. 5. Alarm goes off again (even louder) 6. Hit snooze, decide I should turn on bedside lamp to help wake me up. 7. Alarm/snooze again 8. Alarm/snooze again 9. Glance at clock realize it's almost 7am, and I really need to get up. 10. Snooze 11. Finally decide to get out of bed and take a shower 12. Shower 13. Breakfast while watching news 14. Oh shit, I'm going to be late 15. Rush around to get dressed and get everything together for day 16. Forget making lunch, there's no lunch meat anyways 17. Contemplate getting something to drink, but realize there's no milk left 18. Remember that everything is wrong with the appartment and need to call landlord 19. Turn off lights and leave 20. Promptly forget everything as you get in car 21. Drive to work Rinse and repeat daily until Saturday. Then when you get to #1, you push reset instead of ...

The absolute worst part of work is when you feel stupid. I definately took about 2 hours today to try to figure out how to convert something. It was extremely pathetic. But in my own defense, it was not as simplistic as converting from inches to feet or something dumb. It actually was kinda involved and involved more knowledge than I previously posessed. It was really frusterating. Other than that it was a pretty typical day. It's sad that my work friend had to go home, I liked having a work friend. Oh, and the board meeting was today. Rumor has it that they always fire someone the wednesday after the board meeting. Hope it's not me! It's always interesting to see what they come up with. Though they don't have my job up on the website or anywhere else phew! My tummy has been bothering me less. Which is good. I need to decide if I'm going to take any time off to go home for SFS Homecoming, it would be a good time to catch up and see people again. Especiall...

Well this weekend was unequivacally boring, and I did nothing of real use. On friday I went to go pick up some pizza for dinner, and some kid rear ended me. He was only going about 5 mph at the time, so no damage was done to me or the car, but it was still annoying because it made me late to pick up my pizza. That basically threw me off on Saturday, all I did was try to get further on my afgan. Then I had to run to Michael's to pick up more yarn since I ran out.... it made me sad. But I did finish it on Sunday. I was going to do my laundry, but decided against it because I was feeling really lazy. On Sunday I woke up really late - around 11:30, I went and picked up a paper (because for some reason it costs less to pick up a paper at the corner store every week than to actually get it delivered on Sundays), then watched a little football. Then I decided that I wanted to go and pick up Cinderella, because it just came out on DVD. So I went to Target to look at stuff, and to get...

I'm trying to avoid doing any real work today. I figure I should always make it at least seem like I'm really busy. As it is everyone keeps telling me how they have more stuff for me to do. So if I do have a free moment I take it and run with it, and screw around, because I know that if I don't I'll never get a free moment, and I'll always be working until 7-8pm every day, and I don't want that. So I'm trying to plan now to have a happy work life in the future. I don't think it's good to work too much. It makes your brain dumb and you sleepy and exhausted, and then it's not much fun anymore. Today is a sad day because my work friend is leaving to go back home. Poor me. No one to play with anymore. Though it will make me eat better, and spend less because I won't go out to lunch so often. It's been one of those kinda crappy days today. I'm just waiting for the clock to strike 5. This morning was filled with an hour of workin...

I can't believe that it's already October, time for Halloween. I have to say Halloween is one of my favorite holidays. The fact that it's not uber commericalized, people don't take it too seriously, and it's just plain fun to dress up. I think this year will be the first year ever to hand out candy, every other year since I was old enough to not go trick-or-treating anymore I've gone to parties. I guess that means I should buy some candy to pass out, but I don't want to buy it too soon in fears that I will eat it all. At the end of school I kept thinking about the fact that everyone else seemed to be continuing in school, and I started thinking that I should too. But I have to admitt it is really nice to not be tied to that type of schedule, and poorness. My nights are my own, I'm not studying all weekend... it's nice. Though I have been thinking of maybe going for my MBA. I've realized how little I know about business or how business pro...

Last night after going out for dinner with one of the women I work with I realized that more than ever I need a life in Rochester. It's hard to start considering living here for a while without putting down any type of roots. I guess I need to start putting down roots, exploring, and stop feeling like a long time tourist but that I live here. I think the first step was accomplished last nigth with this realization, along with finding a cute neighboorhood that I like that has a cute spa that I definately need to make an appointment to. Of course there were restaurants with tables and chairs littering the sidewalks that were very popular (of course the asian food was not as popular as the american pub food and italian food ... *Sigh* poor people in Rochester just dont' know any better). I heard about/been facebooked by a lot of people from high school, it's still really suprising to me how many people are still in Toledo. I guess I never thought of Toledo as a great place or ...

Work kinda sucks sometimes. Namely today where I didn't end up leaving until about 6:30. This of course after having gotten to work at 8am, and only taking about an hour lunch. I left for work at like 7:45, and left work at like 6:30 -- that's a long freaking time at work, something like 10.5 hours. Is anyone else working this much? The problem comes in when I take any time away from my primary responsibilities, to like, try to learn something to help me do my job better, I end up getting hosed in the end. Then to top everything off I went to the grocery store after work, this of course took more time and now it' slike 7:30, 12 hours after I basically left my house this morning. Then tomorrow I get to wake up and repeat. What really sucks about Monday's is that there is nothing on TV. At least on Tuesdays there's the Biggest Loser -- which I don't know how I'm going to go do my laundry and watch that tomorrow and go exercise.... Too much in one day. A...

Having a car absolutely blows. Dont' do it. It's not worth it. At all. If public transportation in the middle of suburban America was to at least a useable level I would definately be taking that. But since it's suburban America that's just not possible, because people are not dense enough to make a minimum of routes that are highly traveled. Since everyone is so spread out here the number of routes increases expoentially, even though there are less people. So less people travel a further distance. Meaning more resources are needed to cart a fewer number of people around. This in turn makes it blow. A lot. Cars are just all around expensive. Expensive to buy, expensive to fix, expensive to fill the gas tank, and expensive to insure. I feel like every extra penny that I get just automatically ends up some how being eaten by my car. And by eaten I mean cusumed by the gas burning hell hole it is. *Sigh* maybe one day cars won't take up such a large percentag...

I could really use a haircut, but it's hard to find someone you like to cut your hair. It took me like 2.5-3 years to find someone I really liked in Boston, I don't want to go through that whole process again, thus I've just been letting my hair grow. It's now at that weird length where it will look really cute if it's a little longer, or if it was a little shorter. So I'm debating if I should try to grow it longer or just cut it. I guess the only reason why I haven't cut it is because I'm lazy and don't want to find a new person. *Sigh* my life is so difficult. What really sucks are the non payday weeks. They really tend to drag and there's not much to look forward to in the week. It's hard too at the end of the week not having anything to show for it. Not like the payday weeks are much better, all I have then is a little piece of paper that doesn't even stand for money. This week has really flown by, which is always nice. I don...

So at 4pm today I was semi-chatting with one of our semi-new employees. And the lady I've been really annoyed with at work, not because she's a bad person or anything, but because she's a little slow on the up-take, comes over to us and says "Goodbye." So I was like oh she's going home for the day "Goodbye X, I'll see you tomorrow." She looks me in the eye and is like "no, goodbye." uh-oh. Not really having it all sink in, I'm like, umm okay "Bye." So I kinda eye the semi-new employee like "ummmm I don't get it." A few minutes later "goodbye" lady's boss asks me and another empolyee to go into his office. Uh-ohhhh am I getting canned too? He promptly sits us down and tells us that there were some issues that made him "not trust her anymore." Uhhh okay. And that since she wasn't a full-time employee yet (she was a temp to begin with) he wasn't planning on offering her full...

This lady at work really annoys me. I don't know if it's because she just doesn't catch on that fast, or that she tries to get me to do everything for her. She doesn't like it when I try to make her do her job. But it really annoys me when she's trying to do it because she just whines at me. That just makes me think "um, hell's no I'm not doing anything of yours" it doesn't make me want to do her job or help her out. What annoys me even more is her poor filing of old emails -- she can never find anything, and I am forever re-replying to her emails -- of course I just forward the email I sent her a few days ago. Not because it is easier, but because it prooves that I already sent her the item. I've suggested multiple times that she "invest" in putting google desktop on her computer (quite handy I might add, I definately recommend it for all of those who get a ton of emails everyday) and by invest I mean take the 5 minutes to...

There's a million toys at Toys-R-Us that I can play with! I got to play with toys at work today. They were cool toys. Very expensive. I wish work involved playing with more toys more often. Maybe someday I'll get to make expensive toys too. Then I can try to explode them. Exploding things are cool, like Fireworks. Though it's not that much fun to play with Macromedia FireWorks. Though it is useful. I use it at work too. Yeah! I really need a hair cut.

My tummy (yes I know, when I'm sick I revert to speaking like a three-year old, but I'm sick, so leave me alone) hurts a lot lately. For no apparent reason. It doesn't matter what I've eaten, what time of day it is, or how stressed out I am. It just hurts. All the time. If it keeps hurting I'll have to go to the doctor and explain to him that the reason I am seeing him is because my tummy hurts. That's hard to face up to when you're no longer three and mom isn't giving you 7-up because you're sick. (BTW 7-up is way better than Sprite) Work has been boring lately, I've been attempting to screw around as much as possible until my supervisors figure me out. I'm pretty good at hiding my screwing around. I still need a little more practice -- or better hearing. You know, six of one half a dozen of the other. Monday's are crappy days in general though. For starters you actually have to get out of bed in the morning. This by definitio...

Today was kinda crappy and I wasted most of the day. I attempted to go and get my car inspected, but that prooved more difficult that anticipated. Apparently you either have to drop your car off, or make a really early morning appointment. Oh, you can drop your car off on Monday... yeah and then I'm supposed to get to work how? I think I'll try to make an appointment this week at lunch or after work or something. *Sigh* Getting the car drivable is way too much effort. After the failed attempt at getting the car inspected I went to the library and got a library card and check out some books. Then I went to DSW -- which was fun. I got a really cute pair of work shoes. I need to get some cute work shoes that cover my toes -- b/c it's gogn to be fall/winter soon and I have no shoes I can really wear to work. My plight is so horrible, I have to shop for shoes! I'm making scones again. I really liked them last time -- but they were a little too thick -- so I "r...

Could I be CEO Material? My boss told me today that I should think about becoming a CEO someday. Ummm.... I'm 22... I just want a house. Maybe someday if the right opportunity came along I would think about it, but that's a long way aways. And the right opportunity hasn't come along yet. Though I did get a call at work the other day from a recruiter.... Um Mr. Recruiter Man.... I don't want to change jobs yet. I just started this one. I don't want to move again either. How about we wait until I have at least a year under my belt before even thinking of moving on? I don't think I would fare very well in a huge company, I'd be bored, wouldn't understand why I'm doing anything, and just be generally frusterated and bored with the buracracy. I really do hope that they keep my job as what I'm doing now. That would be nice, I like how it's been working the past few days. Everything seems like it's starting to fall into place, and I...

I guess I'm too good at my "temporary" job. Because it seems that I may be a more premanant fixture in this position. As my boss told me, he was looking for someone who could "do at least as good a job as Colleen." Great... I guess I didn't screw around enough, or mess up enough, b/c now I'm stuck with this job -- which I think is actually more interesting than what I was supposed to be doing. But-- I'm only get paid for the job I was hired for, not the job I'm actually doing now. So if it is confirmed that I am doing this on a more permanant basis I think we're going to have a little discussion about my wages. hehehe. I like money. I really like what I'm doing, both because I get to do some technical stuff, but it's not so difficult, or so boring that I'm completely uninterested. Some of it is definately just blah blah blah, this is so boring stuff, but it has it's moments too. And I get to interface with a lot of di...

If anyone has ever tried to switch their licence/insurance/plates from any other state to NY you know how much of a pain in the ass it it. It's also mad expensive with all the additional "fees" they add on. $10 to apply for a licence, another $42 to get the thing. Then $10 to apply for NY plates, $15 for the actual plates, another $42 to register it, $0q97804875 to transfer the title, $21 to inspect it. By the selves the little fees aren't that much, but with their powers combined (EARTH, WIND, FIRE, WATER ..... HEART ----- Captain Planet he's our hero, gonna take polution down to zero!) it comes to something around $200. That's a lot of money, espeically on top of having to get insurance for both the car and renter's insurance -- at least I finished all of that today. Now I'm going to have to wait until at least Thursday (when I get my next paycheck) so that I can afford to register everything in NY. I knew I shouldn't have spent so much at...

In honor of National Talk like a Pirate Day, the rest of this directive will be in the tone (or attempting at the tone) of a pirate. This is the one sided conversation of my little brother to me in honor of this auspcious day. (AKA I left my IM on at home and now have only his half of the conversation.) Brother: yar, ya scurvey scoundrel, get ye to the poop deck! Brother: ye sent me the card Brother: I forgot Brother: hopefully people won't act weirder than usually at work when I talk pirate Brother: yes Brother: that is what we are suppose to do Brother: I will at work Brother: it will be awesome Brother: yargh, me pirates skills are low Brother: but most importantly, you need to be drunk Brother: yes they can Brother: the grog flows freely Brother: pillage while drunk Brother: yar Brother: I smell mutiny Brother: I've got me black mark Brother: the scoundral 'round here disrespect pirates Definately sounds like a drunk pirate ready to pillage and plunder for his lost go...

Note to self read recipe directions before starting to cook. Realizing that the recipe includes white wine (one of your favorites), then not realizing it wants you to let the stew simmer for over an hour -- meaning drinking the rest of the bottle of wine and not eating. mmm Got to love NY wine country!

How is it possible for just me, not a family of four, spend almost $100 at the grocery store. It seems like such a ridiculous amount. I'm still in the building up my little stockpile in case of nuclear disastor phase I guess. It just seems like a lot of stuff. Though the little things tend to be really expensive, like spices, vanilla, and all the yummy baking supplies. Last week I spent like $20, and now it was close to $100. Granted it probably all evens out in the end. But I didn't really buy that many expensive items (if you dont' count all the swiffer stuff I bought this week b/c i needed refills on everything.) Maybe it was the $15 worth of swiffer stuff, or maybe the $20 in baking stuff that I won't use very often (like shortning, vanilla extract, maple flavoring, measuring spoons, and maple syrup -- I'm making maple peacon scones that's why all the maple stuff). I guess it was only like $65 w/o all the baking and cleaning supplies. *Sigh, I wish...

I have a little tale, a tale of me and Papa John. So I'll start, Once upon a time, in a land far far away (from you), there was a girl who was longing for a yummy slice of pizza. With some forethought she found the pizza website, were there were a variety of options. She was not a very smart girl. Thinking that she might expidite the process, she decides that calling to order the pizza might be faster and more accurate (as in delivery time.) As I said, this girl was very very stupid. The phone rings and the girl hears "Hello, how can I help you" "I'd like a Chicken Club" "Oh you mean a Chicken Bacon Ranch" girl:"No, a Chicken Club, it has chicken, bacon, onions and tomato." "You mean a Chicken Bacon Ranch." girl:"Um, no. I mean a Chicken Club, it's on your website it just has chicken, bacon, onions and tomatos." pizzaplace:"I don't get it, we dont' have that." girl:" Okay, fine then. ...

I really have nothing to do with my life. I need a purpose of some sort other than work. School was so all consuming, and all inclusive. Work is not. Well, it is pretty much all consuming while you are there, but it's not your whole day. I really need something else to keep me occupied, espeically on the weekends. I've been doing a lot of shopping to keep me occupied, but really after a while it's not that much fun. Especially when all i really want is a house, and stuff to put in the house. But I don't really want stuff to put in my appartment that I have to move. I wish I could just afford a house now, but that would mean that I'd have to pay off all of my credit card bill. Which is slowly decreasing btw. Yeah for getting out of debt. Talking to one of the ladies at work, and she told me that she paid for her whole way through school, and it was so great that she was out of debt. All I could think about was how much she must have missed out on because ...

I guess I am really starting to struggle with what everyone else who just graduated and got a job is. What is really my purpose in life? I know work is not all of life, but what really is worth more? I think to an extent people who are still in school are widely shielded from this. In college they tell you to pick a major, and you pick one. Vicarious as my choice may have been it seemed sound, and like a clear career path at the time. Ignorance was bliss. Only upon the imanant(sic?) graduation day did the truth start to surface on the reflecting pool of life. It's just not as simple as I thought it was. There are hundreds of thousands of places to work, hundreds of positions within my field that I could chose from, or I could deviate from my field (which I did slightly -- well let's be realistic, A LOT). Then once you start working there are a lot of choices about how much personal responsibility you chose to take on, how you choose to conduct your self, how you deal with chall...

I've finally be granted a reprieve this week at work, no longer is everything building up on me, but I can actually do things in a timely manner and catch up on things that have been on my plate for more than a week. It's a nice feeling. Though I've found many people are dumb. They call me on like a Wednesday to ask about our products, then don't order them until the following Tuesday -- then don't understand why we can't just send their order out the door that day. Ummm if you wanted them faster why didn't you order them sooner? It seems like so many of my peers really do not like their jobs, they are either not appriciated, not busy, or just plain bored with what they are doing. I've found little of that in my position. Which makes me very thankful for both the company and the company culture that is nurtured here. I think though, as the company grows larger there will be more growing pains and less of the nurturing culture, with some added bura...

Why is it absolutely impossible for me to make a decision without knowing the full extent of my options? If I know that there are more options out there, even if I know for sure that they are inferior options, I still must fully examine them all, I can't leave any options out. This is actually very disibilitation. I can't make any decision without wasting all the time examining all the crappy choices. It really makes me lose large amounts of time, that I could be doing something a lot more useful. I'm wasting my life looking at choices I don't want. I really hate doing daily/weekly chores like laundry and cleaning. It's really annoying, and it's not really a waste of time, but rather a never ending chore that just wastes time. I hate doing anything that doesn't really accomplish anything, or that will have to be undone during some indeterminate amount of time. For example: I hate taking the time to put things in storage, since it's just going to ...

I think I really only get to talk to the dumb customers at work. It's really frusterating to talk to the middle man. If you want to talk to an engineer then talk to me. If you want to talk to customer service talk to our customer service rep. Why do I keep having to do CSR stuff? It's dumb and a monkey could do it. (Think the monkey with the little cymbols clapping its hands together.) GRRR WASTE OF MY TIME. I really could use a punching bag to practice on in the lunch room. I talked to my landlord again today about the dog situation to see if he had been able to talk to the realtor. He started out as kinda a dick, but then when I explained that I didn't blame him and I understood his position, but wanted to get all of my information straight before talking to the realtor he turned really nice and kinda appologized for being a dick. That was nice of him. I really do believe the relator was neglecent with his information and thus I've gotten the short end of t...